Splurges and Urges and Whining and Winning. And losing.

Adult language below;

 

Oh my gosh you guys, I'm so freaking sad right now. I am so. Fraking. Freaking. Fucking. Sad.

It's because I'm on the depression/anxiety medication and my body is still getting used to it and I have no friends and no one to talk to ever so it's just anxiety sadness I guess but I don't know I'm so sad. I can't even think, I'm so freakin sad. SAD.

Ok, that's ok. Let's talk about something else! Because it's pretty obvious that I'm fixating.

So I got a new doll! I know I mentioned in my last video 'don't expect a ton of new dolls lol' but, like, I got a new doll. So.

I SPLURGE WHEN LIFE GETS HARD NO JUDGEMENT

It's sort of hilarious because I do not have a lot of money right now. But, yanno, that's future me who has to deal with that. Present me is satisfied drinking a glass of wine to calm down from that entire pot of coffee while watching 500 lifetime original movies until I'm positive every man I ever meet is trying to murder me, VERY HEALTHY IT'S THE BEST

*is sane, don't even worry about it*

The cool thing about this new doll though is the character. I don't want to share too much yet but it's an older one I almost got in doll-form years and years ago, but skipped over in favor of...who would that have been? I think Lemon...

I mean, no regrets there, but still. I'm excited to bring this new boyo home, especially because life keeps denying me a dog. I JUST WANT THAT PUPPYLIFE MAN and by puppy i mean like almost any dog omg why

Hold up. The movie 'Psycho Wedding Crasher' just ended. Gotta start up a new one.

Now starting 'Sorority Nightmare'. My life. What is it. This is my saturday night.

The thing is (not to be totally disjointed), I'm feeling really inspired by this new guy! I've been drafting and converting a bunch of new patters so I can sew him some new clothes. It's a lot of work but it's exciting too. I can't wait for him to arrive! Ahhhhh~

I've also started on my doll-dyeing adventure. So far, it has totally sucked. I mean SUCKED. I'll write more on this later, but I can tell you for sure I'm learning that dyeing a doll means being okay with ending up with a project that might go straight in the garbage.

As I type this, I'm also editing a video on recasts. I know I'll actually have to start responding to comments by the time I post that video, but *whine whine whine my emotions blah* and I don't really want to.

Oh, man. Anyway, hopefully way more colors like this coming up!